Sport has always been an important part of my life, and yet, in recent years, it has fallen by the wayside. I used to think this was because life with small children was just too busy, not to mention the difficulty I faced with communicating in a foreign language. Recently though I have come to the conclusion that it’s actually something else entirely.
My passion has always been for volleyball. I spent most of my adolescence hoping for the opportunity to play and signing up for the volleyball club was practically the first thing I did when I got to university. In fact, my husband and I met on the volleyball court. But in the last few years, he has had to abandon the sport for something less taxing on his shoulders – enter badminton, a sport he now plays extremely well, which he’s spent several years encouraging me to try.
I did – eventually – only to give up pretty quickly. I didn’t like the feel of the racket in my hand – a barrier between me and the ball (shuttle, I should say). I didn’t like that there’s no ‘team’ – not in the same way, even when playing doubles. I didn’t like that the movement on the court was so different…. and so on, and so forth, but these were just excuses. What I didn’t like, really, was the negative self-talk going on inside my head and the fact that I felt discouraged. Things like: “You’re not good enough. You’ll never get the hang of this. You’re the worst player on the court. This is too hard. You’re slowing others down and they don’t want to play with you.”
You see, I recently had an epiphany of sorts when I tried, once more, to play. Something would always happen on, or off, the court that would upset me and then I couldn’t enjoy myself any more. But, this time, instead of giving up, I found myself thinking, ‘Hang on! I can Repattern that!’ And I did. Every time I played badminton, I came home and did a Resonance Repatterning session on myself, and I began to see a difference. I was having fun again, the negative self-talk went away, my physical conditioning improved, my shots improved, my accuracy, my movement on the court, my understanding of the game, my confidence, my speed.
Mental, emotional, physical limitations fell away (and not just on the badminton court either) and I realised – sport, more than any other area of my life, is the arena in which my negative patterns are revealed. That is why I have avoided it for so long. And that is why I now absolutely love it!
I am ready now, more than ever, to bring these patterns to light and work on them, to strip away the layers of negative beliefs and emotions that get in the way of me living my life to the fullest.
What about you? Which area of your life acts as a magnifying glass to highlight those aspects of yourself you’re ready to work on?